All I know, my friends
Is that terrible heartbreak
I would feel
When I left a place
that held me close
and made me feel
that this is this is
that there is there is
I can be
that when I left a place
Like that
There would be a curious heartbreak
A terrible heartbreak
A feeling of doubt and wonder and fear and loneliness and yes wonder again but so much doubt
But somehow what I feel now
Is just that wonder
With maybe a little more space for awe
Mixed in
Where that godforsaken heavy doubt used to be.